Anna Karenina-Book review

I would like to at the onset make a disclaimer… I am no literary person. This is an epic and yet i take on the task of presenting my views. 

So this book has been on my to be read list since ages… at least 6 years that I remember. I even once got hold of a copy during a vacation. But perhaps the thickness of the book and the distractions of a beautiful place kept me from reading. Having kept the book for almost 2 months I returned it unread. 

And then i enetered phases where i was reading sprituality and then motherhood and parenting books.

This time I came across the book as a free copy on my kindle unlimited. Though eventually i took three months to read it during which my subscription lapsed and i bought a copy to finish it. 

The book undoubtedly has the finesse you expect from such a genius. The language is beautiful. The way it expresses the feelings of the characters you can actually visualise it in your head so clearly. The details to which it goes is awesome. Leave alone the famous quotations from this book, every page is a marvel to read. 

BUT…. it did not eventually go down well with me. Now as the name goes i expected more of Anna in the book. I wanted so much more of her…. to know her more ….. read more about her. The multiple characters in the book kept me from being too engrossed. The name of the book was not justified, it was not even 50% Anna’s story.

Secondly I had always thought of Anna as a strong character….. the book totally failed me on that account. The end she meets with really disappointed me. At so many points in the story i could not help pitying her, which was not what i had expected. 

Nevertheless I would say it was a good book and it did leave a mark…. for it has me still thinking about it one week later…. 

Magic of Christmas!

It has been a very bad week. My four legged baby suffering through a paralytic attack and then my little toddler running fever. The pain of caring for one, while the other stood and whined for my attention. It was rough to say the least. It was the countdown week to my favourite time of the year…. christmas, and yet I could not feel the joy.

 From an old pre-order online my christmas tree arrived… just in time along with the decorations. I put it up intending to keep it for 3 days and my toddler brought it down within minutes. And I lost it all.

Amidst all the chaos my heart silently prayed each day for the magic to happen. And it did happen… Today, a day before christmas when it was really not so sunny, the sunshine was abundant in my house. My fur baby took a few steps… against all hopes of my sinking heart and then later in the day many more. 

So finally I could feel the magic and joy of christmas. After all if we believe in magic it never really leaves us. It may take a few moments more to light up our hearts but it will. 

Christmas is not a festival we celebrated as kids. But the idea of christmas always had the magical feel to me. Right from the day perhaps that I read “Gift of the Maggi”…. It fills my heart with love and hope and I really know not why. I had planned to have month long celebrations and activities for my toddler but this year it could not be. But today, a day before christmas I am not disheartened. Another day, another year and another christmas…. next year. 

Meanwhile I have the tree up again for my daughter to cherish tomorrow. With a little gift… though I want her to know that the most wonderful gift is life itself…. that we unwrap each day…. and I wish her beautiful presents each day of her life. 

Merry Christmas 💓

Three Daughters by Counselo Saah Baehr


A good review followed by the knowledge that it was available on kindle unlimited got me to read this book. I took up kindle unlimited when while looking for some titles I found them for free reading on kindle unlimited. It seemed a very financially viable thing to do. Being a book lover it is rare you look at economics of it. 

Right from the start it was a beautiful book to read. Narrates the life of daughters spanning three generations. The book is slow paced and yet holds your interest. It is absolutely beautiful how the author moves from mother to the life of daughter. 

The setting moves from a tiny village near Jerasulem to America. their is nothing exceptional about the book. But thankfully it is the kind of book you can keep down easily and yet you look forward to reading. 

I cannot say it is a must read but if you do read you won’t regret for sure!

What do I eat to loose weight?

Inspite of all the extended nursing i did not experience a magic weight loss. Of course I did not put in the efforts. So now that Myra is short of turning 2 and more importantly I having turned 36, I decided to take on the weight head on. Since I am still nursing her I did not want to do the foolishness of giving up on nutrition… hence I hired the services of a nutritionist. Now she has a wassap group of her clients to keep them motivated and I too was added there.

No this is not about my weight loos story but my shock that people and I mean well educated people beleive and hope some magic potion to work on helping them loose weight. I so frequently see people asking or posting about having xyz to loose weight. Hey wait! For weight loss you have to not eat… or precisely not eat unhealthy high calorie food. Eating or drinking something cannot make you thin. No ways! 

Food has a very important role in our weight loss… almost 80 per cent. No amount of burning yourself in the gym will give you results unless you watch what is on your plate and also how much. Eating unlimited salads isn’t the solution after all you don’t want your body loosing strength. Weight loss should be healthy too… leading to a more energetic you. Portion control is very important along with of course what you are eating. 

So do look for healthy food options instead of food that will make you thin. Sipping hot water or green tea to loose that fat…. nothing can be more hilarious….. 

You have this body to last you this lifetime… take care of it… 

I am on my journey hope you find wisdom in your weight loss journey! 

Myra’s 100 book pact – 5

Most books here are repeats. Kids love repitition and it makes complete sense to present to her what is her favourite

Book 30/100 perfect pets… bought this book because she loves animals. It is a beautiful touch and feel book and has been a favourite ever since we have been reading it. What i like best is the texture of tongue of the cat. Cat’s tongue is very rough and that is exactly how it feels in this book. Great for young babies too.

Boom 31/100 Naisha at the market… from the naisha series. We lov them!

Book 32/100 vegetables board book… self explanatory name. I too love this as I too learnt the English names for some vegetables for which I only knew the hindi names. A reminder how parenting is also making me grow. 

Book 33/100 little miss sunshine… a tiny board book. Love the little miss series. Good to carry on short trips too. 

Book 34/100 Animal action… this book i got as a free gift from the lady who sells pre loved book. It is an awesome book where some parts of the animal move. Many of these are broken and perhaps that is why it was given as a free book. Nevertheless we love it! 

That is all for now 😀

Will be back soon with more books from our reading shelf! 

Nostalgia Must be my Middle Name!

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I wanted to get some prints of my 20 month old daughter’s pictures to put up. So i happened to be scanning old folders… and guess what within minutes I started feeling nostalgic. she is not even two yet and I already happened to be missing her baby days. The days when she did not even have a clear vision… the days when she would look around and give her beaming smile now and then… when she started standing… crawling and so on. A baby grows up too fast. and now i understand what it means when they say you have a baby for only a year.

Anyways this is not about her… it is about this nostalgia… that I experience oh so often… that makes me miss things which are not over yet. Miss a friend who has not left but I know won’t be around tomorrow. Miss a city before we have even left.And of course yes… miss the good old days!

I am not a very big fan of change. I like things to be… people to be… places to be… And yet change is the only constant in my life.

Nostalgia must not be good because it goes against my belief of being in the moment. It makes my heart run in places which exist in the past and it makes me long for them. But is there a cure? I wish there were…. because longing for sure is not a good feeling. Especially longing for what is over… and will never be. It only causes heart ache… The world is not standing still… it is moving constantly… and so we must move too. We cannot stop carrying a beautiful past in our hearts… but memories is all that we can cherish and we must know that.

I had been experiencing deep strong violent longings for past two days… and then looking at her old pictures made me even more nostalgic. Nostalgia is the essence of the week it seems….  Anyways it is weekend and I think I will celebrate the past with a glass of wine…. i cannot live in the past because it does not exist and future may not. All I have is now and this is the moment to live, to celebrate life and all its beauty and create more memories to cherish and to remain nostalgic forever.

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Being Vegetarian!

I was a non vegetarian by birth. Ever since I remember I loved eating non veg. In my house as a small kid it was cooked on rare occasions as my mother turned vegetarian when I was very young. But I always was crazy about it.
When I started my spiritual journey, I started feeling not so good about it. Also being an animal lover I felt this was such double standard. Both things made me feel I was not being true to myself.
Also when my meditations became more serious and more regular I felt that on days when i had non veg I was very uneasy in my sadhna(meditation practice). I had started to feel very peaceful and quite otherwise but on such days I use to be very restless. Perhaps it was only my guilt. But another reason could be that non veg is not easily digested by the body and hence your stomach next day does not feel so light.
So all this while I kept wanting to give up and yet kept telling myself its ok… I will one day. I knew I would!
In February 2013 I was attending a basic art of living course. As a part of this course we are supposed to not eat non veg for the duration of the course to feel the effect of the sadhna and kriya. I have participated in this and many other courses earlier. Left for a while and again started. But this time I left and I never looked back. I know I never will because now I do not feel the temptation anymore. In fact the thought of eating makes me feel ugggh!!!
For a foodie like me it was a big thing. Only someone who has the same love for food can know what I mean. Eating out was all about eating non vegetarian. So yes in a way it is good that we do not eat out so much. Vegetarian options are not so many and most stuff I can manage to cook at home.
Also initially I was worried that I would be tempted at parties or social gatherings. But I guess when your resolve is strong you get the strength to make it through 🙂
I used to many a times feel that wish I was never made to taste from childhood. Leaving it was so tough. So for my daughter I decided to keep her vegetarian…. till the day she is old enough to decide what she would like to do. She may choose to eat or continue being a vegetarian.
Leaving non veg made me feel so light. My body too never supported non veg. it used to lead to indigestion. Now I have not felt that uneasy feeling in ages.
Apart for my body my soul feels lighter too. I love animals and I feel more truthful to myself now. It has taken away the guilt I felt everytime I ate non veg. I feel pride in myself for having given up something which was almost my weakness and yet I knew was not good. I do not even eat eggs and everytime someone asks me “oh! You don’t even eat eggs” I feel so good.

I won’t say it was a easy thing to do. But only to resolve was difficult and thereafter it just happened. But what was most important was to make the decision to give up.

If you too have been feeling within you need to take this beautiful step… do it… do it now… It makes you feel good to do something good. Doing something wrong is so easy but to do the right takes a lot of energy. Is it not strange? You may give yourself so many reasons and explanations why you think you are doing the right thing… But if even once you feel that pinch… you know what you need to do 🙂

Make your body and soul lighter… forgive the animals!

All the best ❤