Head or the Heart

I want it but i know i shouldnt have it. It seems the easy way out but is it also the right way. It makes me happy but will it keep me happy? Have you ever witnessed this battle between the head and the heart? I think we all do…. and I surely do very often. Two most important organs of my body always wanting to run to different directions and so difficult to know which one should I follow.

Follow the heart and you end up in a mess and follow the head and you end up heartbroken. Which one is worse!

Follow the heart is what people say but can we leave our brains behind. Wasn’t life already too complicated. And why couldn’t it have been simpler. Why did heart need to give opinions when thinking and making decisions was the primary task of the head. Or is it a trick to confuse.

I try so hard to silence…. but whom do I need to silence… and if both were to be silent how would it feel and where would I go? But yes I think it would be wonderful… the silence….

I guess a toss of a coin should be a good way out next time… though I hope there ain’t a next time.


The social media…. getting personal!

I have many friends on facebook…. 350 or 400 or more maybe. But are these really friends? Most are perhaps just acquaintances. It takes a lot to be a friend. Isn’t it?  Anyways what makes me write this is my complete failure in understanding the social media… 

I am not anti facebook. In fact I absolutely love my newsfeed and all those awesome groups I am a part of that nourish and nurture my hobbies my desires… that so very often give me food for thought and bring some colours to my grey cells. There are many beautiful takeaways as well. 

What is beyond my comprehension is this craze for selfies… the celebrations which are more celebrated on the facebook… the love that only seems to be found nowadays on facebook. 

From teenagers to school going kids…. we have a selfie crazy world. Sometime back i happened to be in a shopping mall and i spotted a group of college friends…. each of them busy in getting themselves clicked. We go for an outing or in the middle of a celebration…. what is important is to get clicked. Earlier also we always clicked pictures when on a beautiful outing etc. But then the aim was to capture the moment… but now we are so busy capturing the moment that we forget to live the moment. 

What is even more crazy is the need to pass on the wishes to the one we love on a social webpage! And even crazier to spell out the love for my newborn…. this is a completely new way of cherishing relations perhaps. How about looking into the eyes of ur beloved while you utter those love notes! Or holding hands of your little one and telling them how precious they are. 

Perhaps the social media has made us more anti social! Or so I feel. 

Anna Karenina-Book review

I would like to at the onset make a disclaimer… I am no literary person. This is an epic and yet i take on the task of presenting my views. 

So this book has been on my to be read list since ages… at least 6 years that I remember. I even once got hold of a copy during a vacation. But perhaps the thickness of the book and the distractions of a beautiful place kept me from reading. Having kept the book for almost 2 months I returned it unread. 

And then i enetered phases where i was reading sprituality and then motherhood and parenting books.

This time I came across the book as a free copy on my kindle unlimited. Though eventually i took three months to read it during which my subscription lapsed and i bought a copy to finish it. 

The book undoubtedly has the finesse you expect from such a genius. The language is beautiful. The way it expresses the feelings of the characters you can actually visualise it in your head so clearly. The details to which it goes is awesome. Leave alone the famous quotations from this book, every page is a marvel to read. 

BUT…. it did not eventually go down well with me. Now as the name goes i expected more of Anna in the book. I wanted so much more of her…. to know her more ….. read more about her. The multiple characters in the book kept me from being too engrossed. The name of the book was not justified, it was not even 50% Anna’s story.

Secondly I had always thought of Anna as a strong character….. the book totally failed me on that account. The end she meets with really disappointed me. At so many points in the story i could not help pitying her, which was not what i had expected. 

Nevertheless I would say it was a good book and it did leave a mark…. for it has me still thinking about it one week later…. 

Magic of Christmas!

It has been a very bad week. My four legged baby suffering through a paralytic attack and then my little toddler running fever. The pain of caring for one, while the other stood and whined for my attention. It was rough to say the least. It was the countdown week to my favourite time of the year…. christmas, and yet I could not feel the joy.

 From an old pre-order online my christmas tree arrived… just in time along with the decorations. I put it up intending to keep it for 3 days and my toddler brought it down within minutes. And I lost it all.

Amidst all the chaos my heart silently prayed each day for the magic to happen. And it did happen… Today, a day before christmas when it was really not so sunny, the sunshine was abundant in my house. My fur baby took a few steps… against all hopes of my sinking heart and then later in the day many more. 

So finally I could feel the magic and joy of christmas. After all if we believe in magic it never really leaves us. It may take a few moments more to light up our hearts but it will. 

Christmas is not a festival we celebrated as kids. But the idea of christmas always had the magical feel to me. Right from the day perhaps that I read “Gift of the Maggi”…. It fills my heart with love and hope and I really know not why. I had planned to have month long celebrations and activities for my toddler but this year it could not be. But today, a day before christmas I am not disheartened. Another day, another year and another christmas…. next year. 

Meanwhile I have the tree up again for my daughter to cherish tomorrow. With a little gift… though I want her to know that the most wonderful gift is life itself…. that we unwrap each day…. and I wish her beautiful presents each day of her life. 

Merry Christmas 💓

Three Daughters by Counselo Saah Baehr

A good review followed by the knowledge that it was available on kindle unlimited got me to read this book. I took up kindle unlimited when while looking for some titles I found them for free reading on kindle unlimited. It seemed a very financially viable thing to do. Being a book lover it is rare you look at economics of it. 

Right from the start it was a beautiful book to read. Narrates the life of daughters spanning three generations. The book is slow paced and yet holds your interest. It is absolutely beautiful how the author moves from mother to the life of daughter. 

The setting moves from a tiny village near Jerasulem to America. their is nothing exceptional about the book. But thankfully it is the kind of book you can keep down easily and yet you look forward to reading. 

I cannot say it is a must read but if you do read you won’t regret for sure!

What do I eat to loose weight?

Inspite of all the extended nursing i did not experience a magic weight loss. Of course I did not put in the efforts. So now that Myra is short of turning 2 and more importantly I having turned 36, I decided to take on the weight head on. Since I am still nursing her I did not want to do the foolishness of giving up on nutrition… hence I hired the services of a nutritionist. Now she has a wassap group of her clients to keep them motivated and I too was added there.

No this is not about my weight loos story but my shock that people and I mean well educated people beleive and hope some magic potion to work on helping them loose weight. I so frequently see people asking or posting about having xyz to loose weight. Hey wait! For weight loss you have to not eat… or precisely not eat unhealthy high calorie food. Eating or drinking something cannot make you thin. No ways! 

Food has a very important role in our weight loss… almost 80 per cent. No amount of burning yourself in the gym will give you results unless you watch what is on your plate and also how much. Eating unlimited salads isn’t the solution after all you don’t want your body loosing strength. Weight loss should be healthy too… leading to a more energetic you. Portion control is very important along with of course what you are eating. 

So do look for healthy food options instead of food that will make you thin. Sipping hot water or green tea to loose that fat…. nothing can be more hilarious….. 

You have this body to last you this lifetime… take care of it… 

I am on my journey hope you find wisdom in your weight loss journey! 

Myra’s 100 book pact – 5

Most books here are repeats. Kids love repitition and it makes complete sense to present to her what is her favourite

Book 30/100 perfect pets… bought this book because she loves animals. It is a beautiful touch and feel book and has been a favourite ever since we have been reading it. What i like best is the texture of tongue of the cat. Cat’s tongue is very rough and that is exactly how it feels in this book. Great for young babies too.

Boom 31/100 Naisha at the market… from the naisha series. We lov them!

Book 32/100 vegetables board book… self explanatory name. I too love this as I too learnt the English names for some vegetables for which I only knew the hindi names. A reminder how parenting is also making me grow. 

Book 33/100 little miss sunshine… a tiny board book. Love the little miss series. Good to carry on short trips too. 

Book 34/100 Animal action… this book i got as a free gift from the lady who sells pre loved book. It is an awesome book where some parts of the animal move. Many of these are broken and perhaps that is why it was given as a free book. Nevertheless we love it! 

That is all for now 😀

Will be back soon with more books from our reading shelf!